刺

或许我真的是带刺的人
所做的事情总是
伤害自己
也伤害身边的人

对不起
什么是对
什么是错
我真的不会分辨

接受

最近疯狂爱听这首多年前的歌
是因为歌词的关系吗？
喜欢管启源的词。

FACE

My face is inflamed again!

It's full of pimples and acne now!

It's swollen and itchy now!

I hate mirror now!

It's the third time this happen in less than 3 months!

It's become more serious!

It's spoil my mood!

I swear to myself do not eat FAST FOOD for at least half year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recover soon please! No face see people lah!!

This week

FINALLY today is Thursday already, and my final exam start from next Monday, I just hope it's going to end as soon as possible, this freaking LONG study break is torturing me!! Gonna to blog about what have I done on this week.

Start from last Saturday night 20/11

Had a yumcha session with yiting and ah eng, long time didn't meet with ah eng, luckily can meet with them before I left Bahau, if not I think I just can meet my dearest hometown besties next year or during chinese new year. Feel happy gather with old friends, talking about each other campus life and gossiping, simple yet happy.

21/11

Came back KL with my sister-in-law, the traffic is quite congested that day. Oh ya my sister-in-law is in her 5-months pregnancy now!! That means I going to be someone AUNT next year, 2 years later there will be a cute boy or girl calling me GUGU, everyone is looking forward about that. A newborn always bring new hope, right?Reach KL on evening, having dinner which prepared by mummy with bf. We watched ASIAN Games badminton final together by using laptop, oh I definitely miss my house's plasma tv that time, haha. Sadly our Dato Lee defeat by Lin Dan again.

22/11

Went to movie this day, sure is HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HOLLOW. We watched in Tropicana City, the hall is so big! It's nice but the novel sure is better, so many details movie just cant show it, for me the best part always is the detail. Gonna wait for more than half year for part 2, aiks!

23-25/11

I spent my day in library, and night in my bed, lolx.

November is birthday month for my batch coursemate, total 4 寿星, each week one.

Happy birthday to sem heng, munyi, xue mei and jun bin!!!

Best wishes for you all!

天天天晴

在这三个study+break星期里我看了50多集这套tvb每集20分钟的处境剧《天天天晴》，很明显主角是李司棋、毛舜筠和黎耀祥，三个都是演技派的，看得很过瘾。还有就是搞笑的李思捷，最近还因为《荃家福禄寿》而很红咧。其实他演戏也很好看的，演什么像什么。
这两年爱看tvb这种处境剧多过它那些二三十集的剧集。喜欢处境剧贴近我们生活的剧情，感觉像在演着我们生活里的点点滴滴，每个人都可以主角。何不是，人生如戏，戏如人生啊！除此之外，我也很喜欢它那种以轻松手法带出人生的很多哲理的情节，富有教育意义，有point！ 

处境剧还有一个特点就是长，像当年的《真情》和《皆大欢喜》我都忘记有几百集了。我也很喜欢看长的连续剧，喜欢那种一直延续下去的感觉，当中有人离开，有人加入。。

之前那套《毕打自己人》是我唯一一套有完完整整看完的，三百多集，看完过后真的会有一种失落感，毕竟看了那么久。我每次都是等它做了几十集后才开来看，感觉比较爽~

这套《高朋满座》是很多年前的了，没有完整的看完，很想找回来看，可是pps里的是讲华语的:( 很喜欢那个男主角-郑丹瑞 :P

os:礼拜天要回kl了，在想好不好在回去之前把剩下的20多集看完，嘿嘿，酱就代表今晚和明天都不用读书了，到底好不好呢？

Migraine

Gosh!! Suffering of migraine for the second time this morning in this less than 3 weeks time!!! Had an injection of  analgesic 2 weeks ago just because of keep vomiting cant take the medicine, the injection is pain!! I hate the feeling of dizzy and nausea, I cant do anything instead of lying on the bed. Whenever in holiday or study week, you come to me!! I know is my irregular daily routine caused this, migraine always want me be a good girl, sleep early wake up early consume more water no oily food no rich flavor food no stress exercise ... Maybe I should go back to KL earlier then I just can have a regular routine. Home just too cosy, I don't feel like to move at all. Haiz, feel sad to have this illness, first attack was on 8 years ago, doc said main cause of migraine is hormone problem and hereditary, cant fully cure just can prevent. That's mean it will follow me for my entire life!! T.T Healthy is priceless. I always know this.

ps: Please don't attack me during exam time and when I'm in Taiwan!! :(

空间

把床上一半的娃娃收了起来，床顿时宽阔了许多。

心也一样，是时候把不需要的事物清出来了。

我需要空间喘气

需要空间放一些美好的事物进去

需要空间让心变宽。

os: 不要心宽体胖就好了:P 

小大力士

无意间在电视看到一个儿童奶粉广告里提到蚂蚁可以举起比它体重重400倍的东西，让孤陋寡闻的我感到很好奇就去google了一下。

蚂蚁力大无穷 
据力学家测定，一只蚂蚁能够举起超过自身体重400倍的东西，还能够托运超过自身体重1700倍的物体，美国哈佛大学的昆虫学家马克，莫非特，是一位对亚洲蚁颇有研究的学者。根据他的观察，10多只团结一致的蚂蚁，能够搬走超过他们自身重5000倍的蛆或者别的食物，这相当于10个平均体重为70公斤的彪形大汉搬运3500吨的重物，即平均每人搬运350吨。从相对力气这个角度来看，蚂蚁是当之无愧的大力士。小小的蚂蚁为什么能有如此神力？科学家们作了大量的研究，分析，证明蚂蚁体内是一座微型的动物营养宝库，每100克蚂蚁能产生2929千焦（700千卡）的热量。科学工作者发现，蚂蚁腿部肌肉是一步高效率的“发动机”。这个“体内发动机”又由几十亿台微妙的“小发动机”组成。所以，蚂蚁能产生如此非凡超常的力量。蚂蚁的“肌肉发动机”使用的是一种特殊的“燃料”，是一种结构非常复杂的含磷化合物，称为三磷酸腺苷，即ATP，在许多场合下，只要肌肉在活动时产生一点酸性物质（这种感觉就是我们平常说的“胳膊酸了”）就能引起这种“燃料”的剧烈变化，这种变化能使肌肉蛋白的长形分子在霎那间收缩起来，产生巨大的力量。这种特殊的“燃料”不经过燃烧就能把潜藏的能量直接释放出来变为机械能，加之不存在机械摩擦， 所以几乎没有能量的损失。正因为如此，蚂蚁的“肌肉发动机”的效率非常高，可高达80%以上，这就是“蚂蚁大力士”的奥秘

我们人类通常只能举起超过自己体重2-3倍的物体，就算是举重世界冠军，也只能举起超过自己体重5-6倍的物体。从小我们都被教导要学习蚂蚁的精神：勤劳团结，总觉得这小小的生物教会了我们人类很多东西。记得看过一个动画电影是说一个小男孩很喜欢用各种方法去伤害蚂蚁，蚂蚁们为了报复把他变成了蚂蚁，小男孩在与蚂蚁们经历了一些事后，领悟了很多，也为自己的所做所为感到羞愧，明白到蚂蚁虽然小可是它也是生命，应该要尊重这些小生命。喜欢这部电影的教育意义。对啊，蚂蚁和其他昆虫虽然小可是却能做到我们人类做不到的事情，所以说每个生物都有它存在的价值，我们人类绝对没有权利任意去伤害它们。学习尊重与共存，才是我们应该做的。


力大无穷的蚂蚁这个事实也让我有了另外一个深思，我们何尝也不都是大力士，我们能把许多的责任与执着扛在身上。责任是无可避免的。至于执着我们有选择的权利，可是为什么我们总是放不下，或是越扛越多？最近总在问自己为什么要紧紧抓住那让我感到痛苦的东西呢？发现原来放下真的比想象中难很多倍，我想应该有400倍吧。你说是不是？

Study weeksss

Arghh... As the immediate conclusion  of being stick to my desk for two days, there is superduper high probability that I cannot finish my study in this less than one month time. Six subjects, all are hard rock, some of them I even rarely pay attention in class so that's mean I have to start from understanding now, regretting for do not do revision before, haiz.. What to do now?! Stick to the desk for the following days!! But I think I tak boleh tahan for one week pun. You know my mom will nagging me if I keep sitting and study as migrain will come to me. Thinking of sit in front of desk for a month, I also want vomit already lah.

T.T

Corporate finance, c++, regression, microeconomy, stochastic, life contingencies and the soa fm paper!! How could I swallow all these stuff in my brain in one month time!!! And I have a damn pack exam timetable too!!

Okay okay I have to  try my best lah.

Ooh start missing mr.toh already, I know you miss me too, hehe..

Gambateh to your study and be safe when work ya!

You must be tired because you have been running through my mind,

you gotta be a thief because you have stolen my heart

and I must have been a bad shooter because I keep missing you.