结束

12月31日
结束了三个星期的台湾之旅，回到了家。
像突然从梦中惊醒般，惊觉我就要跨越2011年了。
在家平静的与父母和我的好姐妹灵芝一起度过12点，简单的幸福，唯独缺了你。
默默在心里许下希望今年一切顺心的愿望。

三个星期的旅程，我并不打算一一叙述。
这特别的回忆，我将永远好好保存在记忆盒里。
愿身边所有人都平安喜乐。
新年快乐！

Fly

Wahaha, my last paper is on tomorrow, I'm totally free after 1.30pm tomorrow. I can FLY after that ( I really is fly :P)

BUT I still need to study now, stochastic process you just bored me!! I cant focus on notes, startbucks atmosphere make me feel want to do nothing instead of study! Yeah I quite poor recently as I have to buy many stuff for my Taiwan trip, but why I will sit on starbucks now?! I should blame today is public holiday, then our library is close, then I have no place to study as I just will keep watching pps in home!! Well, this reason seem so reasonable right? Hehe. Actually student should not waste too much money on food. Mr. bf don't keep bring me to coffee bean or starbucks or any nice cafe, we cant make ourselves used to this kind of LUXURIOUS!! XD but thanks for accompany me anyway XOXO.

远离

本人下个星期一和三还要考试，而且都还没有准备好，可是我竟然跑了回家。

考了一个星期的试，身心疲惫，头脑闭塞。

我真的需要远离那冷冰冰的图书馆，

远离那郁闷的家，

远离那阴晴不定的吉隆坡。

冲个热水澡，吃妈妈煮的糖水，躺在我的粉红房里，幸福就是这么简单。

倒数七天我就要出发去台湾咯，终于有一样我真正想要的东西要实现了，我要为了我自己痛痛快快地玩三个星期，所有的烦躁眼泪恐惧疲惫统统远离我！

PS：最近很爱的一句歌词：有过多少快乐就有多少痛 都在揪着

刺

或许我真的是带刺的人
所做的事情总是
伤害自己
也伤害身边的人

对不起
什么是对
什么是错
我真的不会分辨

接受

最近疯狂爱听这首多年前的歌
是因为歌词的关系吗？
喜欢管启源的词。

FACE

My face is inflamed again!

It's full of pimples and acne now!

It's swollen and itchy now!

I hate mirror now!

It's the third time this happen in less than 3 months!

It's become more serious!

It's spoil my mood!

I swear to myself do not eat FAST FOOD for at least half year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recover soon please! No face see people lah!!

This week

FINALLY today is Thursday already, and my final exam start from next Monday, I just hope it's going to end as soon as possible, this freaking LONG study break is torturing me!! Gonna to blog about what have I done on this week.

Start from last Saturday night 20/11

Had a yumcha session with yiting and ah eng, long time didn't meet with ah eng, luckily can meet with them before I left Bahau, if not I think I just can meet my dearest hometown besties next year or during chinese new year. Feel happy gather with old friends, talking about each other campus life and gossiping, simple yet happy.

21/11

Came back KL with my sister-in-law, the traffic is quite congested that day. Oh ya my sister-in-law is in her 5-months pregnancy now!! That means I going to be someone AUNT next year, 2 years later there will be a cute boy or girl calling me GUGU, everyone is looking forward about that. A newborn always bring new hope, right?Reach KL on evening, having dinner which prepared by mummy with bf. We watched ASIAN Games badminton final together by using laptop, oh I definitely miss my house's plasma tv that time, haha. Sadly our Dato Lee defeat by Lin Dan again.

22/11

Went to movie this day, sure is HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HOLLOW. We watched in Tropicana City, the hall is so big! It's nice but the novel sure is better, so many details movie just cant show it, for me the best part always is the detail. Gonna wait for more than half year for part 2, aiks!

23-25/11

I spent my day in library, and night in my bed, lolx.

November is birthday month for my batch coursemate, total 4 寿星, each week one.

Happy birthday to sem heng, munyi, xue mei and jun bin!!!

Best wishes for you all!

天天天晴

在这三个study+break星期里我看了50多集这套tvb每集20分钟的处境剧《天天天晴》，很明显主角是李司棋、毛舜筠和黎耀祥，三个都是演技派的，看得很过瘾。还有就是搞笑的李思捷，最近还因为《荃家福禄寿》而很红咧。其实他演戏也很好看的，演什么像什么。
这两年爱看tvb这种处境剧多过它那些二三十集的剧集。喜欢处境剧贴近我们生活的剧情，感觉像在演着我们生活里的点点滴滴，每个人都可以主角。何不是，人生如戏，戏如人生啊！除此之外，我也很喜欢它那种以轻松手法带出人生的很多哲理的情节，富有教育意义，有point！ 

处境剧还有一个特点就是长，像当年的《真情》和《皆大欢喜》我都忘记有几百集了。我也很喜欢看长的连续剧，喜欢那种一直延续下去的感觉，当中有人离开，有人加入。。

之前那套《毕打自己人》是我唯一一套有完完整整看完的，三百多集，看完过后真的会有一种失落感，毕竟看了那么久。我每次都是等它做了几十集后才开来看，感觉比较爽~

这套《高朋满座》是很多年前的了，没有完整的看完，很想找回来看，可是pps里的是讲华语的:( 很喜欢那个男主角-郑丹瑞 :P

os:礼拜天要回kl了，在想好不好在回去之前把剩下的20多集看完，嘿嘿，酱就代表今晚和明天都不用读书了，到底好不好呢？

Migraine

Gosh!! Suffering of migraine for the second time this morning in this less than 3 weeks time!!! Had an injection of  analgesic 2 weeks ago just because of keep vomiting cant take the medicine, the injection is pain!! I hate the feeling of dizzy and nausea, I cant do anything instead of lying on the bed. Whenever in holiday or study week, you come to me!! I know is my irregular daily routine caused this, migraine always want me be a good girl, sleep early wake up early consume more water no oily food no rich flavor food no stress exercise ... Maybe I should go back to KL earlier then I just can have a regular routine. Home just too cosy, I don't feel like to move at all. Haiz, feel sad to have this illness, first attack was on 8 years ago, doc said main cause of migraine is hormone problem and hereditary, cant fully cure just can prevent. That's mean it will follow me for my entire life!! T.T Healthy is priceless. I always know this.

ps: Please don't attack me during exam time and when I'm in Taiwan!! :(

空间

把床上一半的娃娃收了起来，床顿时宽阔了许多。

心也一样，是时候把不需要的事物清出来了。

我需要空间喘气

需要空间放一些美好的事物进去

需要空间让心变宽。

os: 不要心宽体胖就好了:P 

小大力士

无意间在电视看到一个儿童奶粉广告里提到蚂蚁可以举起比它体重重400倍的东西，让孤陋寡闻的我感到很好奇就去google了一下。

蚂蚁力大无穷 
据力学家测定，一只蚂蚁能够举起超过自身体重400倍的东西，还能够托运超过自身体重1700倍的物体，美国哈佛大学的昆虫学家马克，莫非特，是一位对亚洲蚁颇有研究的学者。根据他的观察，10多只团结一致的蚂蚁，能够搬走超过他们自身重5000倍的蛆或者别的食物，这相当于10个平均体重为70公斤的彪形大汉搬运3500吨的重物，即平均每人搬运350吨。从相对力气这个角度来看，蚂蚁是当之无愧的大力士。小小的蚂蚁为什么能有如此神力？科学家们作了大量的研究，分析，证明蚂蚁体内是一座微型的动物营养宝库，每100克蚂蚁能产生2929千焦（700千卡）的热量。科学工作者发现，蚂蚁腿部肌肉是一步高效率的“发动机”。这个“体内发动机”又由几十亿台微妙的“小发动机”组成。所以，蚂蚁能产生如此非凡超常的力量。蚂蚁的“肌肉发动机”使用的是一种特殊的“燃料”，是一种结构非常复杂的含磷化合物，称为三磷酸腺苷，即ATP，在许多场合下，只要肌肉在活动时产生一点酸性物质（这种感觉就是我们平常说的“胳膊酸了”）就能引起这种“燃料”的剧烈变化，这种变化能使肌肉蛋白的长形分子在霎那间收缩起来，产生巨大的力量。这种特殊的“燃料”不经过燃烧就能把潜藏的能量直接释放出来变为机械能，加之不存在机械摩擦， 所以几乎没有能量的损失。正因为如此，蚂蚁的“肌肉发动机”的效率非常高，可高达80%以上，这就是“蚂蚁大力士”的奥秘

我们人类通常只能举起超过自己体重2-3倍的物体，就算是举重世界冠军，也只能举起超过自己体重5-6倍的物体。从小我们都被教导要学习蚂蚁的精神：勤劳团结，总觉得这小小的生物教会了我们人类很多东西。记得看过一个动画电影是说一个小男孩很喜欢用各种方法去伤害蚂蚁，蚂蚁们为了报复把他变成了蚂蚁，小男孩在与蚂蚁们经历了一些事后，领悟了很多，也为自己的所做所为感到羞愧，明白到蚂蚁虽然小可是它也是生命，应该要尊重这些小生命。喜欢这部电影的教育意义。对啊，蚂蚁和其他昆虫虽然小可是却能做到我们人类做不到的事情，所以说每个生物都有它存在的价值，我们人类绝对没有权利任意去伤害它们。学习尊重与共存，才是我们应该做的。


力大无穷的蚂蚁这个事实也让我有了另外一个深思，我们何尝也不都是大力士，我们能把许多的责任与执着扛在身上。责任是无可避免的。至于执着我们有选择的权利，可是为什么我们总是放不下，或是越扛越多？最近总在问自己为什么要紧紧抓住那让我感到痛苦的东西呢？发现原来放下真的比想象中难很多倍，我想应该有400倍吧。你说是不是？

Study weeksss

Arghh... As the immediate conclusion  of being stick to my desk for two days, there is superduper high probability that I cannot finish my study in this less than one month time. Six subjects, all are hard rock, some of them I even rarely pay attention in class so that's mean I have to start from understanding now, regretting for do not do revision before, haiz.. What to do now?! Stick to the desk for the following days!! But I think I tak boleh tahan for one week pun. You know my mom will nagging me if I keep sitting and study as migrain will come to me. Thinking of sit in front of desk for a month, I also want vomit already lah.

T.T

Corporate finance, c++, regression, microeconomy, stochastic, life contingencies and the soa fm paper!! How could I swallow all these stuff in my brain in one month time!!! And I have a damn pack exam timetable too!!

Okay okay I have to  try my best lah.

Ooh start missing mr.toh already, I know you miss me too, hehe..

Gambateh to your study and be safe when work ya!

You must be tired because you have been running through my mind,

you gotta be a thief because you have stolen my heart

and I must have been a bad shooter because I keep missing you.

The end

Today is Hari Ko-k, yeah I take chinese painting as my co-curriculum subject this semester. It's not easy for me as I always no talent in art work. Our teacher is good, appreciate his dedication and patience. UM has many interesting co-curriculum subjects such as  tae kwon do, 螳螂拳，many kind of dance, ball game etc. How nice is it if we can take it every semester, then I can learn many thing in my university life.They all awesome. Sadly we just can take one. By the way I had attended the photography class too this semester although I didn't register it ( okay someone is registered this subject). Today everyone of us have to show our work.

兰花本是山中草（不是茅草来的啊）

Done with Hari Ko-k, this semester is officially come to the end, final exam start one month later, that's means I got a study month. I definitely should make good use of this month as the result of all my midterm tests  is totally suck, what the hell I was doing! Four months gone, it's seems like a long time but I feel like it's just a blink of eyes. Cant exactly list out what great job I had done, the only undeniable fact is that I had spent a lot of money, gosh!! Camera, new laptop,clothes, trip...

I wonder where can I dig out money for my 3 weeks Taiwan trip, you know Taiwan leh a lot of should-buy item, I already have a list in my mind, omg!

Okay, I decided to treat my parent nicely ( I used to a good daughter, just now have to be more nicely, lolx) in the following month, so I wouldn't feel so so guilty when take money from them.

Going back to hometown few days later. should come out a study schedule! I hate exam but sadly I have to force myself study for it!! I hate the education system of Malaysia!! I won't send my kids to gov school (if I rich enough)! I don't want my kids go through the same life as me!! Okay okay just want to express my dissatisfactory, spare me! The system is suck but we still can become a great person if we want to. Want to share a quote from Randy Pausch (the writer of The Last Lecture) here :

Luck is when preparation meet opportunity.

Always be prepare!

Fighting!! although I have no idea what is the aim of fighting now, I believe I will know it very soon. 

言不由衷

想让你知道我痛

却言不由衷

想让你知道我累

却言不由衷
想让你知道我怕
却言不由衷

想让你知道我懂

却言不由衷

想让你知道我想你

却言不由衷

想让你知道我爱你 

却言不由衷

想让你知道我在乎

却言不由衷

想让你知道我厌恶

却言不由衷

想让你知道

我的言不由衷

你知道吗？

Jalan-jalan

22/10/2010

终于考完所有的test了，约了室友Joan去茨厂街那一区走走，拍拍照。

一直都喜欢那里的街道和建筑物。

无意中走进了一条小巷，那一整排的店应该有很久历史了。

可是现在好像都是外劳在住。

一直都向往拥有一间像是这样或是马六甲鸡场街里古老的店屋，然后把它翻新成别致的家或是做生意，幻想着自己在那幽静的老街道里过着优哉游哉的生活。

哈，不错的憧憬。

觉得那些motor有点杀风景。

完全荒废的店

也去了参观Sri Maha Mariamman HinduTemple，守门人问我们是哪一个国家的游客，哈，我们像外国人吗？

喜欢这种小油灯，仿佛点着了它就像燃起了希望。

`

老志号冠记云吞面，不错吃，喜欢它的面。

有空再去吃好吃的，啊，我真的只是会吃喝玩乐，完了啦！

EAT PRAY LOVE

Went to this movie yesterday, a novel-based movie, not bad although the length is quite long, more than 2 hours. I like the concept EAT in Italy, PRAY in India and LOVE in Bali, a journey to find yourself.
Few scenes touch me, make me feel wanna cry, but it's not a sad movie, it's inspiring.
Two quotes I like most in this movie:
"Enjoy the sweetness of doing nothing like Italians."
"To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life."

Blogging again

Yeah, I create my 2nd blog after I had abandon my livespace's blog so long time ago.

I admit I'm just lazy or 3-mins-enthusiasm, actually I did a lot of thinking all the time and outing too, dunno why I simply don't have the passion to express it in word.

My girlfriends said my life seems so mystery, dunno what am I doing,.I think maybe one of the reason I stop blog is I don't want other people know me so much, scare of people's judgement?

Okay, I set my mind like this, don't take blog as a diary as diary is something we don't want other to read it, blog is to share something in my life which worth to share. So I would like to start sharing from now on.
p.s.: Oh I'm so lazy to edit the header, give me some time ya.